I just really miss you

I miss you. 

3 words that makes my heart cringe and also start beating again. 

It's a bittersweet thing to miss a person.

Missing someone means you felt something and they impacted your life.

Missing them also means they aren't there anymore.

I miss you. 

I miss the way he tucked me in every night and told me I was important and that tomorrow would be better than today was.

I miss you.

I miss the way her eyes glowed with sunshine and happiness everytime I walked downstairs in the morning.

I miss you.

I miss the way he used to call me his best friend which meant more to me than just being a little sister.

I miss you.

I miss building forts with him and watching him smile as he slept with his chunky baby cheeks covered in drool.

I miss you.

I miss her uncontrollable laugh and how we used to plan all of our outfits to match because we were the best of friends.

I miss you.

I miss the way he brought me flowers and cared so much about being on time.

I miss you.

I miss the way he loved playing Zelda and would drive us around when we didn't have our licenses.

I miss you.

I miss the way he got so excited about the sunrises that he would run outside in his underwear just to catch them before they faded.

I miss you.

I miss the sound of his soft voice over the phone when he would call me late at night talking about everything and nothing at the same time.

I miss you.

I miss his shaky weathered hands and how he always asked me what I learned in school that day and how "Sam" was, even tho he called every boy he ever met "Sam"

I miss you.

I miss the way he held my hand as we skipped as fast as we could through the parking lot into every grocery store we ever went into.

I miss you.

I miss her love for chocolate and adventure and how she  taught me to not care about what others thought.

I miss you.

I miss the late night pillow talks about every single boy in school while wearing our matching sleepover shirts.

I miss you.

I miss the way he danced in his car with the bobble head on the dash, screaming every single word to delirious.

I miss you.

I 

Miss

You.

I 

Miss 

You.

I 

Miss

You.