& REwritten this whole intro thing far too many times.
& the reasoning behind that is I don't exactly know HOW to introduce myself.
because-
because-
I don't know myself anymore.
You know that nasty pit feeling in your stomach you get when you lose one of your most valuable possessions?
Like losing your phone & thinking your entire world is lost.
Ya I lost something.
I lost something that was the most important thing to me.
You know that nasty pit feeling in your stomach you get when you lose one of your most valuable possessions?
Like losing your phone & thinking your entire world is lost.
Ya I lost something.
I lost something that was the most important thing to me.
I lost the person I used to be about 2&1/2 years ago.
& for some reason i can't seem to figure out exactly who that person was or how they smiled & laughed a real laugh again.
(not a fake laugh but the kind that comes from inside your belly & makes the sides of your ribs hurt as you gasp for air with tears streaking down your face)
I miss that
But I don't want this first post to set a somber mood for my blog
because that's not who I am.. Or at least not who I think/want myself to be
See, I discover something new about myself every single day.
& it's not even about FINDING myself anymore
because that can get too hard at times.
& like a phone that gets lost & stolen, it's almost impossible to get that back again.
so I've changed from "finding" to CREATING
because that can get too hard at times.
& like a phone that gets lost & stolen, it's almost impossible to get that back again.
so I've changed from "finding" to CREATING
& i've started a list..
A list of things I want to become, things that make me feel again, things that are actually important in this world of fake things & fake people.
It's a list that I will keep writing forever & ever.
but thats the fun of it right?
I wouldn't be writing this blog post if it weren't for that ongoing infamous list.
but thats the fun of it right?
I wouldn't be writing this blog post if it weren't for that ongoing infamous list.
I like this a lot
ReplyDelete"I've changed from "finding" to creating"
SOOO good
Love how your post MADE me FEEL. So descriptive. Thank you.
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ReplyDeletethis is amazing. Loved every word of it. I will be back for more.
ReplyDeleteI really like this. And that's the nice thing about the blogs being anonymous-create who you are. No one knows who you are so you don't have to stick with who you've always been. (if that makes sense)
ReplyDeleteyour blog is really pretty
I like how you write.
ReplyDeleteIt reminds me of someone but I can't put my finger on it.
Huh.
http://bigreentea.blogspot.com/
I guess we will never know..
#Quality
I rewrote mine way too many times, too. I feel you. Nice work on this, I really liked it.
ReplyDeletepretty blog, pretty picture, pretty sure you're on the right track
ReplyDeleteparis is a great place to reinvent oneself.
that list
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